
Do you ever feel like you’ve just plain old got too many balls in the air?
I don’t know about you but after I’d had Alyssa for around 4 months I realised that I was pretty much trying to still do everything I’ve ever done as well as be a good Mum. And considering that I already had way more than was ever gonna be realistic on my plate before I even fell pregnant, this was pretty ridiculous. I mean, I slowed down a little just before and after the birth, but basically life had crept back up again and it’s slowly but surely taking over the calm and peace that crept into my life after giving birth.
Even as I type this she’s wriggling away on my lap. Starting to cry a little because she’s ready for her nap. Meanwhile it’s 8 minutes to 9; I’m supposed to be at my gym appointment by 9.05 after dropping her at the gym creche at 9, and am still sitting here typing this in the cafe across the road from the gym. My coffee is half full and I have 8 (8!) windows open. And I REALLY hate to hit the gym without at least first drafting or writing a post, clearing out my emails, doing my banking/admin for the day, and planning the rest of the day. Somewhere in there I try to oh, get dressed and brush my teeth, but hey. You can’t do everything.
So (ALyssa, family, exercise aside) the thing which is most important to me and which I absolutely refuse to give up is my writing. Being a writer is my dream, and especially now that my main blog BodyIncredible.com has hit nearly 1,000 readers and I’ve finally released my book, I feel like I actually am becoming a writer. So I refuse to give it up. But it takes the most amount of my (non-existent) free time, and it’s not yet paying the bills. Personal training is doing that, which I love, but it’s tough to fit in and I hate to leave A in childcare for any longer than I have to, even though it is with my Mum. I just hate leaving her.
And then, of course, there’s housework, life, errands, mother’s group, social outings on occasion, looking after my apprentices, and still trying to present myself as a shining example of someone who has it all together.
I thought I had it figured at 3 months; she started sleeping through. 7am was my time to Get Things Done. Well. That lasted about 3 weeks, most of which I slept in for, stupidly thinking I could take a few weeks to recover and then get stuck into being more productive. I hadn’t yet learned that babies only settle into routines in order to trick you; keep you on your toes.
So what do I do these days? I struggle to balance her and the laptop in the mornings because it’s her best time and I want to engage with her, but it’s also my best time and I need to feel productive before the day began. But the guilt is getting insane. Not to mention the creeping sense of overwhelm.
So here’s my new plan. I’m becoming the queen of planners, lists, and systems. I’m (trying to) brutally slash any task that doesn’t relate to something absolutely important to me or urgent in the moment. And I’m slowly, gradually getting to the point where I can almost, maybe, nearly admit that something’s gotta give. I just don’t know what yet and I hope it’s not my sanity.
So is it working? Some days yes, some days no.
How ’bout you? How many balls do you have in the air? Please tell me I’m not alone!
Body plus baby? Easy!*
Kat
*(We hope)
Are you currently on your own ‘body after bump’ journey? I’d love to hear from you. One of my main reasons for starting this blog (aside from keeping myself accountable) was to form a community of like-minded women. Women who refuse to become a dowdy mother figure and instead choose to embrace their new role with the exceptional health and energy that comes from being in control of their body from the inside out. If this is you then make sure you drop me a line in the comments section below!
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I love …
I love the way her pudgy little hands curl in happy relaxation while feeding. I love the little dimples that sit around her knuckles. I love the contented sigh that slips out when she’s (finally!) finished feeding. I love the sudden re-attachment and fast-paced sucking when she realises she’s slipping away but actually wants more. I love that I smashed out a heavy weights legs and shoulders session (6-12-25) in the most macho manner possible for me and then within 30 minutes of it am sitting in our new recliner breastfeeding – being the most feminine me I know how. I love the idea of choosing one thing at a time to do, and choosing the thing that I really want to do. Which is reflect on my beautiful daughter for just a few moments right now.
Body plus baby? Easy!*
Kat
*(We hope)
Are you currently on your own ‘body after bump’ journey? I’d love to hear from you. One of my main reasons for starting this blog (aside from keeping myself accountable) was to form a community of like-minded women. Women who refuse to become a dowdy mother figure and instead choose to embrace their new role with the exceptional health and energy that comes from being in control of their body from the inside out. If this is you then make sure you drop me a line in the comments section below!
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